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and after all, the mind is still there

domingo, julho 15, 2012

I can't regret.

At this point of my life I can't regret my decisions. I can't regret that decision. Regretting would mean losing everything, everything I built to stand me straight, everything that is supporting and lifting me everyday, pulling me out of bed every morning. And I can’t regret that.

Regretting would mean that I’d had to stop, I’d had to think, and we all know that’s a habit I can’t go back to: “thinking”. Regret would mean that I would have to go back to the start, as if everything I’ve worked for so far meant nothing. I would leave all this out in the trash for nothing. For the hope of a bright future that I’m afraid I’m not able to reach that way.

I’m not giving up on my hopes. I’m definitely not giving up on my dreams. I’m just taking them with me secretly in my pocket for when the time comes. A better opportunity.

That’s why I said that it hurt. And it still hurts knowing that I’m a disappointment for you, for her, for a lot of people that I truly care. It hurts me that you don’t understand, that you don’t try to understand what this is all about. Because I thought you did.

And for her

You can’t just stop talking to me or tell me how much of a disappointment I am, or idiot, or coward, or child, because of all of the past you ever had, I’m one of the few that are left. One of the few that still tries to see the good old you.

You know they ask me why do I still talk to you, after all that happened.

I’m going out of reasons.

Etiquetas: bem perto, ela, L, non-stopping-world

useless

you don't love me, you don't care

terça-feira, julho 03, 2012

You turned my life around and for that I am glad, oh

However much I love you, this love is getting bad.

Parece-me que os ultimos tempos saciaram o gosto de me ver em baixo. É o que dá quando a equação de gibbs dá negativa, significa que embora a entalpia possa ter sido negativa, a entropia multiplicada à temperatura foi soberana no sinal positivo que tomou o caos como certo. é isso que significa, sabes? os acontecimentos espontaneos são acompanhados por um aumento de entropia, um aumento da desordem natural, o aumento do caos. é isso que me ando a tornar, amor, no caos.

continuo sem perceber como é que ainda sobrevive a possibilidade de tu não conseguires perceber o quão extraordinariamente bonita és.

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Etiquetas: L, non-stopping-world

useless

recortes de um jornal abandonado

domingo, julho 01, 2012

tenho um medo de morte de te perder. talvez seja essa a única justificação por te procurar em todo o lado, por te querer nas mulheres. talvez seja um erro...
mas a verdade é que amo os teus defeitos. não preciso que ninguém entenda.
todos os dias prometo que não vou partir sem ti.

senão nada. senão tudo.

Etiquetas: L, not mine

useless

a anormalidade de cada um é que os torna especiais